music, photos and leaving it all...

My mood is kind of mellow at the moment, that to put The Asylum on hold after a good run of 10 months, I have to find some other groove to get going.

Winah Lacanilao, Dutdutan 14

I cannot explain or simply put to words as to why  I am semi-retiring, maybe the best things or how people view this, is I had enough bulk to handle on my own now. 

To be honest, I can fake that I am really doing well, but I just need to take a time off.  But because I am doing so much now, I got people telling me to look long and hard the life I was living and helped me realize the coping mechanism I built after my depression isn't working.

Running a team that is slowly dispersing, is much a sad thing, and that could be one of the many reasons.

During the last few months, I really felt the wear and tear and seeing my slowly team go,  as they say people have their reasons, I will just simply leave it at that. And the supposed coping mechanism to alleviate me from my long term sadness, felt I really need to deserve a proper break. It' s been tough and I couldn't keep pushing myself the way I have anymore, it really felt I am going drop down to the pavement, If I didn't kept going. So in a couple of weeks, I will embark the largest shoot that I will be hosting, my last shoot. So many models invited, cosplayers, and friends alike, to this once in a lifetime for me to shoot them at their very best.

Nickhers Concepcion, Memoirs

After which, I am taking a longer, much needed break, to rebuild what is left of me and The Asylum, and to work this out long term, despite my new schedule change at my regular day job, I really need the time figure a way to make it out through this.

I have been working on improving photos and studying new techniques during this time off, to be better at my craft, something that will not be taken from me, and even though I will be out for quite some time, there will be a whole new The Asylum and me, once I get out and live to get crazy again, when we do return.

I like to thank the following people who helped me got to this level of success: Honey, Tiarra, Kirky, Ronan, Aly, Yuki, Rhosa, to my TACOS (The Asylum Cosplay Otaku Society) girls - Nhal, Alice, Angel, and June, The Faculin Sisters - Karen, Kitty and Keshia, the MTP models - Eyra, Marg, Kim, Joycee, and Cristelle, and Cosplay friends such as Angel, and other people I bump into this events, to Gayle and Winah, to Dutdutan 2015, and last my to my three beautiful children who keeps me sane - Xanthe, Nickhers and Prances.

Foremost to the people who left The Asylum, without you we wouldn't go this far, Shen, Shyra, and Mitch.

Thank you for sharing these 10 months, Until we reopen our gates again.

Paul Andrew Jurilla, The Asylum

bigger, better and bolder... opportunities

When I started doing photo shoots in 2008, I would never expected to go this far. My photo shoots began a simple shoot with my ex whenever we traveled to some exciting exotic locale, it was meant for fun then early 2013 I was invited by my "little sister" to my first fashion, I was hooked, I wanted more. 

Around mid year to the end of the year when my recent ex came along to my life, we shot from the park, to the beach, and to her bedroom, giving me diversity of shots, different themes, ideas - she ventured me to shooting in cosplays, car shows then all things got too serious. I stopped.

I stopped because I went to some ordeal, that

involves me picking up pieces of my heart, you guessed it, I was heartbroken. Me and my ex broke up.

January 2014, Get in the Grind

February 2014, Fierce

October of 2013, a familiar face messaged me, it was my model from the fashion shoot, wanting me to do a shoot with her and her friends, wow I thought, it has been a while since I picked up the camera, then from then on I got that high again, it was bringing me to nostalgic feelings which made me feel uneasy when November came I thought this may be my last shoot - spiraled to January of this year launching The Asylum.

March 2014, Elemento

The Asylum, until June of this year had me involve with 7 high-end photo shoots, participated in 2 cosplay events, and aside booking myself the whole year, I got another message... My "little sister", the little entrepreneur, the marketer, wants me - not just a photographer for a shoot, but part of her creative team, a plan of being part of something big.

When I looked back to my humble beginnings, I can't help but be thankful, to the exposure, the different people I met along the way, and now I look forward, to what may be the biggest adventure I will go through, boom or bust - come what may, seize the moment....

PJurilla

Here I come.